Freak Out Moment

As many of you know my younger sister (11 months and 2 weeks younger) is getting married this weekend! Ahhhh!!! I have so many mixed emotions right now that I don't even know how to handle it, which is why in writing this emergency blog post! I have felt absent through this process even though I have been "here". I thought this was going to be a summer of traveling through Machu Picchu and taking some traveling risks. Well, I'm not meaning to sound like I'm complaining, because trust me it is such a honor to be in people's weddings and I do enjoy it! However, I feel emotionally drained right now and it's a mixture of things! It's the fact of balancing responsibilities such as, the job search and making decisions (I have a whole blog set aside for that topic), being there for others even when they don't deserve it (trust me I don't even deserve it myself), remaining positive even when the odds don't even seem to be in your favor, and the greatest struggle for me is accepting that life is continually changing. I truly feel I am going through a quarter life crisis. I struggle with time and expectations that are meant and it's something I need to erase from my head. I pray and pray that I'll truly get to enjoy this weekend with my sister, live in the moment, and share this time with her. Thanks for reading and this was my freak out rant right and these were the things I had to say. 

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