Hey Blog Followers! It's been a while since my last post...and I feel that's how I start off almost every post I write. Is it just me or do you ever just feel overwhelmed with what direction to take in your life/career/clothing options? I already have a hard time deciding what I'm going to be eating for lunch, let alone what I'm suppose to be doing career wise for what it feels like the rest of my life. It's tough and I know many of us 20 something age group (or many 30, 40, 50 year olds) can relate. I don't classify myself as a Computer Science anything. I just say i'm a teacher who teaches computers and sometimes I don't even know what that means. However, when I talk to other people I feel they think I went to school for this (kinda did, but not really) and that I can automatically fix any computer program and know exactly all the cool innovative things that are out there or will be coming out. Sometimes I do and MANY times...I have no clue. I'm learning just as much (typical teacher answer...), but it's the truth! Especially with technology, there is always a new thing out there, a new update, a NEW SOMETHING! So, it leads me back to the question, "What direction am I suppose to take?" In the field of computers it feels like the options are endless. Graphic design, computer programming, teaching, engineering, coding, Google certifications, Microsoft expert...it's so overwhelming. I keep asking myself, where do I need to invest my time and money, especially because this field can be a financial commitment. Part of me has had the fun sucked out of it, because my hobby became work (which is not a bad thing, but not a good thing either-I'm feeling indifferent about it now) However, it's just added some pressure that I wasn't ready to deal with. I know in the end it's going to turn out beyond better than what I could imagine. I am thankful that there are opportunities to be looking into. There are so many gifted and talented people out there and they are the ones who inspire me to keep seeking, whatever it is that I am hoping to find. I want to hear from you too blog followers! Tell me I'm not alone in this search of, "What direction do I take?" question. Life is exciting and the sky still feels like the limit. I hope it does for you too! These are the things I had to say. #DreaSaidIt
Hey Blog Followers, I know it's been a while since I have posted last, but I'm so excited to share with you that I have change of plans on what I will be doing this upcoming year! One of my most recent blog posts titled, The Sky is the Limit talked about how I was going to be subbing this year and I can say, I was able to sub for a total of two weeks (I can still say that I've been a substitute teacher, right?). I'm not going to say that I learned everything I needed to learn as a teacher with those few experiences, but I will say if I learned as much in those two weeks as I did, then I can't even imagine what I would have learned at the end of a school year. Well, the change of plan is I am no longer going to be subbing this year, because I have accepted a position as a Computer Elective Teacher for Culver City Middle School (Go Panthers)! I'm still processing all of this, so if this post feels scattered well it's because it still feels scattered in my brain. I have been a Kindergarten aide for two years and for the ones who really know me, know that my nature is very suitable for younger children, because I can be very soft spoken at times and I have a high tolerance level for things that other people find annoying. I tell people all the time that being a Kindergarten Aide is a dream job for many reasons...seeing cute kids everyday, still teaching without having to plan, helping out the classroom teacher with all kinds of tasks, not knowing what your getting for the day...alright alright, it's not a dream job for everybody, but I think I would have been happy if it was my job for the rest of my life. I feel after getting my credential my main focus was I had to get an elementary teaching position, even though there were times that I felt 3/4 of my heart wanted that and 1/4 was unsure. I would say that 1/4 was open to something else, but I just wasn't sure what it could be. Well, as many of my teacher friends know, when it comes to applying for teaching jobs, Edjoin becomes your best friend and many times you find yourself applying to the most random places and get to know of areas that you didn't even know existed, near and far. I vaguely remember applying to a post that was titled, "Computer Teacher" back in early August. Well, when I wrote my blog post, "The Sky is the Limit", I felt all the jobs that I really wanted were already filled, schools already started, and the chances of getting hired for a full time position was starting to narrow down. This is the part that I know God laughs at and reminds me, ANYTHING is possible with God. Last Thursday, I was at a sub job when I found out that I could interview for a computer teaching position. I went in the next day, Friday, for the interview, and was offered the job on Monday (yesterday). It has all happened so fast, but I do believe that this position couldn't have been more perfect for me. The Chinese philosopher, Confucius, said, "Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life." That is exactly how I feel right now...I will be getting paid to teach kids how to use computer programs that I use daily, I am still getting to use my credential, and it's a "job" that I will want to keep growing in, which means looking into taking classes that I would be doing regardless of this position or not, because technology is always changing and I need to stay up to date of course. I will admit that I didn't see myself ever teaching middle school students, but I'm so excited to enter this world! Above all, I have to thank God for everything He has done. He gives me things even when I don't deserve it. I have doubted Him, complained to Him, and cried to Him for the things that haven't worked out, but yet He still gives me the things that are the best for me! Anyone that is going through a period of uncertainty, I pray that God will release you from that. On my Instagram account I posted a picture that said, "We were made to thrive" and I got it from the Casting Crown song, "Thrive." This song reminds me that ANYTHING that God gives us is all for Him and He can equip us to do the impossible when we choose to ask Him and bring Him into our lives. I say, lets keep dreaming, keep praying, and continue to be persistent. I will humbly admit that I might forget this feeling someday or these words that mean something now may feel empty in the future, but that's the beauty of writing...I write so that I can come back and be reminded of all the beautiful things!!!
